i mean when i was 14 i got raped by a friend of one of my exes. . .it really affected my love life. i was a virgin and someone just took that from me.. i tried fighting back of course but im very skinny and i wasnt working out back then so he got a way with it. i never told my mom or anyone in my family…i only told my best friend when i was 15 and she insisted i told the police…but to me it seemed useless since it had been over a year that it happened. okay the point of this is that i am truly in love with my current boyfriend. we have been together for 3 years. im 18 and i still havent had sex with anyone after that happened. i really want to be with him but i really want him to know what happened to me. every time i think about telling him it just makes me think that if we have sex after i tell him that he will feel uncomfortable and maybe that screws up our relationship and i dont want our relationship to fall apart..WHAT DO I DO?! do i just forget that ever happened to me and just have sex and not tell him anything never??