so ive liked this guy for about a year now and we’re actually pretty good friends now and this year i started talking to an old guy friend and i thought i was maybe starting to like him and getting over my guy friend, that was until my guy friend went through my messages and said “oooh! you guys are flirting! you so like him you just wait you guys are guna date!” and it was like as soon as those words came out of his mouth in my head i was like “no you dummy i dont like him i love you!” and ” i really wish you could see that” but it almost made me curious what if this other guy friend has feelings for me; would i date him? do i feel the same? and it was pretty obvious: i dont think i would go for it i just like this guy too much but im scared i dont want to wait around forever hoping for wat might be impossible to happen. and then today happened we were hanging out with another friend of ours and he asked him “so who do you like?” his response “someone from my church” and my heart broke 🙁 it was like the world stopped and all i could think “you dont love me </3 i dont go to your church" "why did you have to ask him that!?" i wanted to just run out of the room an cry. i think with that its time to move on to this possible thing that might happen with this other guy, but i know im not going to get other my guy friend in my mind hes just so perfect and i cant help but put myself down thinking "im not good enough for him anyway, you deserve better" </3 but im always going to love you