Every single time food goes into my mouth, I feel horrible about myself. Today, all I ate was a cupcake and four almonds. I know, terrible. And yesterday, I didn’t put one thing into my mouth except for water and gum. What the hell is wrong with me? I want to be skinny and perfect. I know starving myself isn’t the way to become that, yet, I keep avoiding food. Because when I get around a lot of food, I eat so much and then feel sick so it never works to try and eat healthy. I do not want to become an anorexic person, but it looks to be that way. Every time I look in the mirror, I want to throw up because I hate the way I look. The media has ruined me and torn me apart and I cannot turn back.