everyday i feel as if i want to die i live with m mother and grandmother i havent had a father figure in my life for 12 yrs . sometimes my grand mother treats me like dirt but then says she loves me. she says that i am the cause all her problems . she calls me names really evil names . also in every argument she brings up the fact that i am fathers less, and that she could kicks us out of her house any time ,and that she would be better of without us. i go through this every day . i have tried suicide many times and i have tried to runaway but i never have enough courage to do it . i feel as if one day my grandmother will push me to the limit the i will do something that i will regret for the rest of my life. if you read this please give me some advice i dont know what else to do. she also gives me harsh labor just to punish me