kind of glad i found this site because i just really need to vent about some stuff. Being depressed is horrible. I’ve had it for a long time now and i just feel so s***ty. I started 6th form in September and i felt great about doing the things i really wanted to do. But now i’ve just lost my passion for pretty much everything, i smoke weed to feel better and i hate myself for doing it and i start counselling pretty soon so hopefully that should help. I’m just fed up of being the person who helps everyone else, i feel like i give everyone the right advice but i can’t even advise myself 🙁 my best friend’s ex boyfriend likes me and i don’t like him back but she thinks i do which is really f***ing s*** because he’s a great friend but i feel like i can’t be friends with him anymore because it looks like something more than friendship to her. I don’t know what to do anymore, i just want to die, i wish i was ever born, i wish that i could show people how horrible i feel because it may sound horrible and selfish but i don’t want people to think i’m fine anymore. I want people to feel the emptiness so they know that it’s the worst thing in the world.