I’m scared of death. Not to myself or anything, although I’m scared of what’s on the other side when I do die. I guess I’m just scared moreso of being alone.
My parents are older, not old exactly but when your 14 and your dad’s 60 you think a lot about it, and are aware of when you’re 30 your parents could be dead by then. I’m scared that my sisters, cousins, etc. will die before me. I’m scared of them dying and me being alone. I get scared when I start to think about death, I don’t know what I’d do without my family. It eats at me more than it should. Also being depressed about some other issues doesn’t help at all..
What is it like to lose a really close family member? I don’t want to figure out anytime soon. I don’t think I could handle it, like I’ve said. This is really going on and on, but at the moment I’d just like to write something down.