tonight i am sad. i also feel quite lonely. it seems as if i always choose the wrong people. i tend to care too much about the people who care about me and vise-versa. i keep thinking of the way he sounded so sad when he talked to me today. i have been cold to him lately and it is not my fault. we might not have much in common but something we both do is hide behind a fake smile and laugh. faking a smile is something that just comes natural to me. i’ve been doing it so much that i can’t even tell if i am actually happy anymore. i usually just feel empty. but it’s nights like these where i just break down and all of the emotions come back to me.