God,
I am experiencing some anxiety about all of the packages that Beth has been ordering. Who is paying for all of these angel cards?
She says I am but she means the state of california.
The state of california is paying for my sisters dildo.
I hope that I can get some clarity about my next indicated step.
M. and Sister Jeff just talked in the kitchen and M. said Sister Jeff hates her?
I didn't hear anything. She called her the harassing spirit.
I don't know what the hell is going on but I am just sitting here and letting it happen without getting emotionally intoxicated or acting out. Please be the witness of God, God.
I am so powerless here it is almost baffling beyound belief.
I don't know what these two human beings want from me. Or if I am even a part of this situation? Should I just dummy up and play audience member?
Acknowledge the melancholy spectacle?
I am going to just exist with the breath and the groundlessness of the being of unknowing.
I didn't cause ANY OF THIS, I CAN'T CONTROL ANY OF THIS, AND I CANNOT CURE ANY OF THIS.
I accept that. And I am going to be as patience as the cloud of unknowing is on a rainy day.
None of this is alone, and none of this is to blame.
I have to just wait for godot. There is nothing else to be done!
God please be with me.
I am getting out of Gods way, so forth.
Silently Anonymous,
-The Archer