God,
They turned the station and they are barely watching it, it's so weird.
I was stimming on Bates Motel but sharing is the most important thing.
Sister G. just did a really emasculating and dominating birp.
I am sitting in the chair in the position of sit.
M. made a breathfast which did a taaste which felt warm.
Eveything feels pornographic here. It's bizrre. Is it just my mind or the human conditionlessness?
I don't know.
But they're teaming up against me and I can feel it. The plot to ruin Mr. Tuttle. So cliche but it's the way things are. Mattering things and thingly matter.
Now, they left the office on and they;re in the other room.
So I have to wait perhaps 20-30 minutes becausse I like to give a lot of space for someone to say thaat hey we were watching that so that there is no chancelessness in hell that I didn't give them a chancelessness to watch the show.
Unloved, unkissed and lost in real absence time and camera free!
(SWEEET!) (PSYCHAEDELIC!) AND (GROOVY).
I don't know if they can hear me but that would be really spooky. I'm hoping that God ccan keep these prayers between anonymity and I (DeepArcher and I) but I don't know. I might be schizophrenic because the levels of paranoia are so High! The strangeness is so High! I cannot tell Ullrich about it.
Anyhopes, I am going to continue to program and allow my self to praactice and cultivate abstincence no matters what. Even if the coercive neglect continues. I am aware that I am an adult child. And that I can no longer blame my soul for what I am but they're keeping me around. The ghost of the marriage of THE FAMILIAR.
I don't know why.
But the longest patience might happen.
I am willing to wait for godot till nothingness happens again. But I completely accept (this is what I was going to say before) that I am out of the control of others and any kind of control of my existence. God is my bus driver!
I hope thaat God can do His gentleness the best way he knows best. I don't know anything about it, it's a mysterious-mystery to Me.
Thank God for the listening of God.
Patiently,
Silently,
Anonymously,
-The Archer