May 26, 2020
2:09 PM
Dad Called again. Asked about the same same Tumblr post wanting to know what caused me to make the assumption about their love.
Well, I obviously can't tell
Talked for hours about a half story I told him as I can't tell them the full story about my mindset knowing how they will react.
The fact that he didn't figure out I may need additional help from the suicidal posts that appeared close to the "parental love" post goes to show further how they view a suicidal person (I mentioned earlier that my mum once referred suicidal people "possessed by demons").
So, when he pressed on know why I wrote that, I simply told him I viewed myself as useless after failing the first semester and predicting the university suspension.
Not fully true as I basically plugged that post from my these notes, precisely from the page where I talked about my frustrations in summary.