I love music
I looove music those beats aah they are just so taking to other worl BUT theres a problem my mom sais its not a really good idea shes amazing mut i dont now
Not good enough
I try to do the best I can, but it seems like thats not good enough with my mom. She always has to say something that puts me down. I thought Online learning would distract me from her yelling at me or telling, but it doesnt stop her. She doesn't care if I am in [..more..]
It’s hard for me
It’s hard because I feel so alone. I would never let my kids grow up without a parent but the loneliness becomes overwhelming.
Mother
I still like to visit my ex-boyfriend's mother. We had a close relationship before my ex-boyfriend went to jail and we still do. We often do stuff together like cooking, or painting. I've been helping her quit smoking and yesterday we celebrated it. I'm glad we still have a close relationship despite everything that happened [..more..]
Mom
I was cleaning the attic and saw my mom had kept her diaries from when she was a teenager. I know i shouldn't have read them but I did and now…I feel really bad for her. Knowing what she went through with her abusive mom, the pain she suffered. I respect her so much
Thoughts on Sunday (Brimo visits)
September 22, 2019 4:30 PM Telling me how bad the nation is and how we need to move to Canada. Well I'm not doing well enough. Saying I need my sister to interact with to help my grades. But not true. Assuming my interaction around her is same as when she's not around. Stressing that [..more..]
Thanksgiving Sunday at Izirein’s
October 13, 2019 6:31 PM Went to the thanksgiving dinner at Izirein. Again, socially overwhelmed by the numerous family members I can't relate with. One of the sons came with big speakers for music. He's into music. My mum asks me to help them set up the audio equipment, probably because she felt I was [..more..]
June 2
Tuesday, June 02, 2020 17:03 Again dad called after sending a whatsapp story about the importance of family/group staying together to support each other. Went on with his pandering about my choice of not associating with the family and church group is causing my problems But conveniently ignored that he banned me from meeting/communicating with [..more..]
May 29
Friday, May 29, 2020 15:04 Dad still called after I told let him know that the university processed a refund for a course I dropped early. I dropped the course within the refund timeline. First thing, he gets angry over the fact that "I dropped a course without telling him". He considers it a big [..more..]
May 26
May 26, 2020 2:09 PM Dad Called again. Asked about the same same Tumblr post wanting to know what caused me to make the assumption about their love. Well, I obviously can't tell Talked for hours about a half story I told him as I can't tell them the full story about my mindset knowing [..more..]