How is it possible for you to be so nice but so uncaring all at once? How can you make me feel like I'm the most important person in the world but also like you barely know me? How is it so hard to notice when I'm stressed and ready to break? I have broken so many times since you've known me and I think a piece of me is lost every single time. And yet you always help me get put back together. I just wish you'd help keep me from breaking. I wish you'd notice I hadn't slept in days and that I have done everything around the house and worked a full time job. I wish you wouldn't be so selfish as to only care about yourself relaxing and not even notice that I'm killing myself to keep the house running. I just want you to notice. I don't want to have to ask you to do things. I just want you to know that I need them done. Help me not keep falling apart.
I also want you to stop punishing me for small slights. I don't mean to do them but you make me feel so alienated from you for days and I still don't know what I've done. Stop adding to me breaking. Help me stop breaking apart. It's too hard. I feel like the antique egg you smashed because you frustratedly threw all my stuff to the floor. I feel like I'll never be able to be put back together.
I feel broken.