I'm pregnant with my second child and I'm terrified. I have a son who is almost 4. He's getting to the point where he is getting more and more independent. It's so easy now. We are in a wonderful place and rhythm. I'm 3 mo pregnant and not excited at all. Friends and family don't understand. But I was sort of the way with my first pregnancy too. I didn't feel a connection until a few days after he was born and I got to know him. This time its a girl and that thought alone terrifies me. Girls look so hard to me after having a boy. I breastfed for just over two years with my son and I'm dreading the Constant nursing in the newborn phase. I'm mourning the loss of my current freedom and the quality time I currently have with my son. Plus I don't have the most helpful and hands on partner.