I hate that I'm the one who has to face the consequences of my mom's actions. She died giving birth, and since she is dead, they have to punish me instead. Growing up people use to tell me how great my mom was, but I've learned dark things about her. So my feelings for her are complicated, and at this point I should probably change my name from "Andy" to "Susan" and get a sex change since everybody likes to think I'm her in a different body.