Some People Thinkk What ivd done hasn’t effected Me . Well It Does . Unfortunetly . I Don’t Like to B Reminded Of Things That Happend . Coz I Already Know Its Still There . Its Like watching someone D the Dishes & Then asking Them 15 Mins Later if They Did Them Over & over & Over . . Its Even Gotten To The Point Where I Think About The Painless Life I Cuhd Have . Just So They Can Stopp Worrying About Me . . That’s How I Feel . Nothing Hurts More Than a fake smile & silent cries ..