I’ve been with several girls through out my life, at first before writing what i feel I just can’t believe I’m even here writing this. This girlfriend I am with now Is the best thing I’ve ever had through out m whole life, I ve never felt alive in my life. she changed every direction I think. She is recently leaving back home for the summer and I’ve been going crazy every time i think about here not being around me. I am so attached to her but ill never show her that because i feel that she ll stop showing me love if i do so. I am so frustrated with everything today is her last day here and we had a huge fight which resulted in both of us hitting each other and I know i shouldn’t have put a finger on her but i was being as smooth as i can but still, i seriously don’t know what to do i love this girl more than anything and every single thing in my life is an obstacle of being with her.but still i know this is too extreme but honestly i would change everyone in my life lives for her. I would give her every single drop of me, I would die and live and trepeat for her. I have never felt love before i always thought i did but no one would ever understand how much i love this girl, my friends and family think its a temporary thing but this is beyond believable. I want to tell the world how much i love this girl her name is Karina and i want people to know so i guess this is what bought me here? if i lose this girl i lose everything and i mean it everything, as i said before she bought life into me. I come from a place were life has no value and people are programmed that way, but since i ve known this girl i feel alive and I’m going insane i wish to god to make me live 200 years just to love her i hate this dam world without her i hate my family without her i hate my friends without her i hate the god damn world without her and i can’t believe I’m going to spend a whole month without her, i know she doesn’t trust me and thinks ill do things while she’s gone but i don’t blame her because i haven’t given her a chance to trust me all i did was push her away and make her lose my trust, regardless whatever it is I can’t and just can’t stay a month without her. anyone has an advice? i know y’all are probably like this dude is crazy or so but the truth is yea i know I’m crazy because I’m so in love with girl and nothing i mean nothing will ever change my mind. please someone just tell me how to go through this smoothly because i can’t talk to anyone about it i hope someone out there knows how i feel or been through smthn similar to they can help me please i beg the world Ive never been like this I’m so scared of losing smthn so precious i want to be brave again and stop being so doubtful and be the person i used to be but with her still in the picture. i love her i love this girl ai want to show the whole world how much i love her. i don’t want no other pretty face and i don’t want no other person in my heart if i aint with her i aint with no one including family, friends and everyone around me i wish i can hold her tight and make her read my eyes and read my mind i do not know how shell react if she actually knew what she meant to me. lately she’s been thinking i don’t care like i used to but i am making her think that way for some silly reasons. i want this relationship to grow to be become superior to my life to become the most important aspect of my life i would have a full time job if loving someone is can be a job this job would be 24/7 no holidays no vacations no nothing ops she