hey umm.. were do i start umm i feel as if my life is over and i am only 14 i hate my life and there is so much to hate i cant get into right know but i know for sure i wanna die and i have tried and it doesnt work and i was a merical child i was suppose to die wen i was born i was the one of the first to ever live this birth and then i have tried to kill my self and it doesnt work so i feel as if i am here to do something but i dontnow what and i am not sure if i want to know or if i wanna wait how ever long to find out if i should please help