I’ve been depressed / anxious since I was really young, going through mood swings and doctors stupidly giving high doses of medication to a skinny child (i’d later prove to be intolerant to pretty much all meds). I was bullied, there were many family deaths which I took really hard, these meds caused me to develop phobias that ruined my sleep patterns and my life. To this day I’m in excruciating mental and emotional pain/discomfort. The only relief that I get is from art and music.
Everything is so vivid and trippy and terrifying and I’m always hurting. I googled “seemingly untreatable mental illness” today to see if there was anyone out there feeling the same thing or receiving some kind of alternative treatment that caused a breakthrough for them. Right from the get-go, the first articles were about consensual doctor-assisted euthanasia for the mentally ill. I don’t wanna die. This can’t be the only answer. There has to be something else.