Three years ago I joined university, and every bit of the depression I held back throughout my childhood came back.
But that doesn’t matter. It doesn’t matter that I fell in love with a friend and he hurt me, causing me to leave university behind. It doesn’t matter that those people are doing so much better than I ever could.
The thing is, I met someone, and they’re pretty grand. But then we started living together. With his best mates. I don’t feel right here – it wasn’t how I hoped it’d be – it never is. Now I want out. I’m 22, semi-employed, very little money. I want to travel places. I want to run a business. I want to be independent, and I want to lose all the weight I’ve put on. At the moment, though, my life is at a standstill. I can’t continue until I finish university – the thing my successful, pretty ex fellow students have already done.
I feel so trapped at the moment – like nothing can make me happy again. I don’t think the person I’m with at the moment is the one, although I do love him in my own way. I guess, to be honest, I’m just lost right now.
Time will sort it out, though, right?