what the F have i done….omg i am so confused now…..worse than ever before…5 yrs of waiting and now theres no going back…. it didnt at all work out how i wanted nor where i wanted …..nothing…… i dont even know how i feel anymore……confused isnt the word for it…. what the f have i done….. i want to cry i want to scream i want to just forget about the world….wtf have i done………….