I really feel empty these days. ew.
it’s so embarrassing that im even writing something on a website anonymously like this too. but i guess imma just ride the impulsive wave that i feel right now.
i feel upset. im blessed, but i feel so worthless. who cares if i get good grades if i can’t remember anything that i learn after i leave the class? who cares about grades if i can’t use what i learn? even if i do well, i can’t use anything in order to do things that actually matter. im not contributing anywhere to anyone. im just a dumb leech who’s leeching off everyone and can’t contribute whatsoever. i want to do something with my life but i have no idea what that something is. and i doubt that i even have the skills to do so either.
i know my worth isn’t found in accomplishments or others’ praise…. but even if i know that’s true, i don’t believe it. i know it. but i don’t feel it. so i guess i don’t actually believe it, do i? and i guess i don’t actually know it either.
prob gonna regret sending this in ohwell.