ok so my girlfriend has been staying in my house since last sunday its not thursday and on tuesday she decides to break up with me, ok i can understand y she did it, i closed myself off from her and from every1 but i really thought she got that i was in a bad place, i lost 1 of he most important people in my life 12 weeks ago and i no for other people there able to just ick themselfs up and carry on and normally im like that but i cant seem to deal with it, im cayin over stupid adds on tv n if some1 has the same name as him i break down r if any1 mensions him, i thought she understood thats y i was being distant, im loosing myself and i dont no how to keep hold of me cause she was the only person keeping me sane, we were engaged 4 months, we planed on having children, we wanted the white house with the pickit fence and im after loosing it all all because i lost myself, i dont no what the point of anything is anymore, i’ve llost everthing imporant to me, the only reason i wouldnt just end it all is my 2 newphews thats it otherwise id leave this world,i left in the last year consists of loosing loved ones, a break up,almost loosing my home, my father being in hospital on his death bed, what more can this life hit me with? i love her so much i need to get her back, she’s the other half of me, i feel incompleat without her, but the most confusing thing is ok were not together onymore but we also said were not gonna see other people!!! like i have no interest in any1 else anyway and she says the same but i just dont get y we couldnt work it out if were not seeing any1 else anyway,