Lately I’ve had a lot more free time to myself. During that time all I can think of is how everything I do is never good enough. The people around me all say that I’m smart and pretty but I know that there’s someone out there that’s better than me. someone that’s working ten times harder than I am and someone who doesn’t do things halfway. I want to be like them. I don’t care about being perfect or a model or anything like Isaac Newton. What I want is to be someone that I can feel proud of. I wonder if I’m doing enough. Am I happy with how I am? It’s a matter of identity. Sometimes when I’m really desperate I wish that we were separated into factions so that I wouldn’t have to worry about who I am. I’d know who I needed to be and I’d work towards it. Right now I’m simply lost. I don’t know for sure who I want to be and for some reason it makes me frustrated.