Well I f***ing hate my life right now. The girl that I really like, does not like me back. She likes my f***ing friend.My good friend. It just pisses me off really and makes me really sad. We go to the same school, same grade, and we are good friends I think. Well since I found that out she has turned into a total b**** to me. It just kills me inside. I have now started to drink a lot. I used to only drink a beer but now I drink vodka and rum and s***. I have also hit up a pipe and been smoking weed. These things are something I would have never thought of doing 3 months ago. I am just depressed I have to say. I took some test online and they all said moderate to high depression is what I have. I have the chance to change schools for a semester and not talk to her. But I have no idea what to do. Another reason I hate my life right now is that my friends are starting to not talk to me. It just makes me sadder. I mean I have been feeling more tired lately that I have been in my entire life, and everything I used to have fun doing is just plain boring. I don’t know what to do at all. I just need some people to tell me.