I think I have depression, but I don’t know what to do. I need help. I feel like I can deal with it on my own, but I know that’s not true… For the past six months I’ve been feeling worse than I was before. The symptoms of depression match up – feelings of hopelessness, feeling worthless, weight gain, headaches, feeling alone and isolated, feeling unloved, being irritable, etc. I told my parents, but I didn’t tell them just how bad it’s gotten. They’re not doing anything about it yet, except trying to get me to socialize more.
Two months ago I started having suicidal thoughts… I’m not in any immediate danger of taking my own life, I’ve just thought extensively about how I would do it, what I would write in my note, what song I’d listen to as I died.
I haven’t been through any traumatic events, my family loves me, I’m not starving, I don’t self-harm, no one bullies me. I just have very, very few friends. I feel unwanted by the general public. If my life is so relatively easy, why do I feel so crappy about everything? The symptoms I listed sometimes go away for a few days, then come back. I feel like I don’t deserve to get help and get diagnosed as depressed. (If they diagnose me as depressed…) My problems seem so overwhelming and so insignificant and unjustified at the same time.
I know something’s wrong, I just don’t know what. Maybe I’m depressed, or maybe I’m just a spoiled fortunate girl being dramatic.
Someone please help me.