Why do I have to fall for someone I can’t get? Why can’t I just turn my back and move on? Why do I have to pretend there is nothing and carry on? Sometimes the pain drives me nuts. Other times I just feel I am in control and there is nothing to worry about. But deep in my heart, there’s always this biting pain. I keep trying to shake it. Some days it feels less painful. Some days it seems worse. I feel quite drained. I just want to be free now.