LIFE! i miss you so terribly. i thought i’ll be spending an ample time with you after work but only in my wildest dream. i understand you changed your mind to be with me for you to do groceries. i spend a lot of time just to be with you. have you ever appreciated it? am i worthy to be loved by you? im having a hard time now. i feel so alone. so you would be expecting me to come over on thursday till sunday with you. but during the time that i can’t spend the weekend with you.. you would just be with me one night and thats it! i know i have less responsibility than you do. you know i have always wanted to end my life.. i was so tired with it before you came in.. but why am i feeling it now again even if im with you maybe not literally with you. im happy everytime im with you.. i dont ever get tired.. but why is it so easy for you to change your mind.. maybe just maybe… i am not really worth loving. i am just a trash which you could just easily throw out of your life. i cant buy you gifts the way you do because from the very beginning of our relationship i told you that i could only give you lots of memories. i love you so much and i feel terrible right now. im glad i saw this site. because i keep everything to myself.