i DONT KNOW WHY I AM WRITING THIS BUT I FEEL LIKE ITS SUFFOCATING TO NOT TELL. I HAVE HAD A CRUSH ON THIS GUY FOR 3 YEARS AND I HAVE ONLY TALKED TO HIM ONCE. HE’S ONE YEAR OLDER THAN ME SO BY THE TIME HE WAS IN YEAR 7 I BARELY GOT TO SEE HIM. I WANT TO GET TO KNOW HIM BETTER! BUT I NEVER HAVE THE COURAGE TO TALK TO HIM, ACTUALLY I CAN’T EVEN LOOK HIM IN THE EYE. I WOULD ONLY LOOK FROM FAR AWAY WHERE HE WON’T NOTICE ME. I DON’T WANT TO GO OUT BUT I COULDN’T BARE THE IDEA OF HIM GETTING A GIRLFRIEND OR THE TIME WHEN HE’LL GRADUATE.