Knowledge. How do I gain it? How can I completely devote my life to knowledge? At times like this, I do not care for anything else-I just want knowledge. I want to know what to do at what time, why and how;I want to be able to answer all your questions and figure out you’re 46 years old and do computer engineering simply by looking at your hands. Obviously, that is impossible, but I want it. I don’t want anybody to know, I don’t want recognition; I’d rather it all be secret and just live my life knowing. To know all the answers to the universe is impossible of course, and I don’t want to play God, but I want to to feel assured that I can answer something, that I can’t be manipulated. The worst feeling is being manipulated or unable to figure out the truth. I don’t want to be a genius where 130% is guaranteed in every test, but I want to be able to tell you the truth and contradict the lies you’re spewing at me without any doubt. It’s almost pathetic how much I want it, and how incapable I am to actually reaching it. I’m quite average academically, I’ll always doubt myself, and nothing will stick in my brain. Fog covers what fog can see.
But I want it. I want knowledge.
Is that wrong?