I was 84 now I am 78 pounds
I was 4″11 now 4″9 I don’t even understand how
I lose weight easily or even how did that happen to my height
which I want to re check my height again
I try so hard to help myself and I don’t know why is everything the way it is
I have to drink this Gravilyte G drink
that’s a gallon and I haven’t even finished it
and here I am on the verge of wanting to cry
because I am hungry like I rarely get appetite
and then the day I actually do, I have to go through a stupid procedure
and it I am so exhausted and feel so weak
I have the enormous headache of life
but I have to wait till tomorrow to top it off
the nurse called me and told me my clinic hasn’t even faxed the papers
to them so yeah I should be the first patient but I have to wait till they get
the fax so how messed up is that
I miss my partner so much
and we spoke and I feel horrible because I told her
I can’t even bare to be on the phone and
she understood she always understands she even called me back
just to tell me she is sorry and she doesn’t or can’t even imagine
how I feel because of everything and I wanted to cry because
she supports me so much even on my worst days and everything today
is just falling onto my lap and I am just opening my eyes more and more
I love her deeply I am not in love but I do love her deeply
she is my bestfriend my number one supporter
thank you for being you