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Why do you always call on me? Is it because I’m always the most responsive? That’s not fair. I’m the youngest, but you make me do the most work. He’s the eldest and is barely called upon, and she’s the middle and refuses to do your tasks while she complains. I complete your tasks with a sad face on. If I say something, you’ll just lecture and mock me, so I’ll just keep my mouth shut. You may forget how many times you call each kid, but I don’t because it’s not a good feeling to have to work while the others get to play. I mean their already adults. Deep in my mind, I find this kind of behavior from myself to be wrong. I should be happy for what I have and be considerate to my parents who are tired from work. Contradictions like these make me cry myself to sleep. Other things happen too, such as: this person wanted to start a conversation with me but I was too social awkward, I feel too self-conscious that I can’t open my thoughts to others, and I’m nothing but an errand maker.