I feel hurt in so many ways because its hard wake up every morning knowing that my feelings wont matter to anyone except that special person. Im with someone now and I enjoy it too the fullest and we talk and we laugh and its amazing. But my depression has gotten so bad I cant seem to talk to anyone about it because I dont want to darken the mood around me. I dont rreally think much of myself and its a big self esteem booster too have someine rhat cares about me. I love my family too death but it sucks because its a situation where you know that everyone would be better of without you.I can give good advice but I cant seem to take it.im lost in life and I know being only 17 that its still early but ive lost alot people because of depression and it seems thats its taking me too. I k ow id never be able too do it but that feeling of utter hopelessness is just a lot to bear. I came here to vent because I need help and I want to help others. I might actually learn to take my own advice