Ever been in a situation where you lose someone special and just feel like you cant do anything anymore ? I feel that way, I feel like giving up on everything because I lost that one special person to me.. I love her from the bottom to top and I would do anything for her. she wants to see other people but says she still loves me.. I don’t understand that, she wants to see others but still loves me , what sense does that make.. I have been going on walks for 3 nights now, music, a picture of her and lonely dark nights, it relaxes me but gives me thoughts that I cant handle.. I don’t know what to do anymore.. my biggest fear was loosing her but its happening right now and I am really lost.. I feel like theres no worth in my life anymore, I have nothing to live for.. even though im still 18 years old, I feel like she is the one. We went to dinner one day and I seen sparkles in her eyes, I had a very quick vision of how my life could be with her, I imagined a 9 – 5 job, coming home and seeing my kids, and her .. my wife .. the kids go to sleep and me and her sit by the fire, listening to our favourite songs talking.. I wihs I could bring time back just so I can change things and be with her the whole time.. I am really considering ending my life and I cant get that thought out of my head.. I was very happy with her, I loved her the whole time and I never cheated on her.. they say love is when you put someone elses needs infront of yours, I love her and I wish I could be ok with her wanting to see others, but I just cant, It slowly kills me inside the thought that one day I could be walking on the street and I will see her with someone else.. I just cant..