“I don’t think I can make it out tonight.”
This phrase has been my motto these past few days.. okay weeks… or months… I haven’t left my house in a while.. besides school of course. What am I waiting for? This is just the calming before the storm.. Can it get worse? To answer my own question.. Yes. Yes it can always get worse. That’s what counselors and parents and friends DON’T tell you. That it CAN get worse. We always hear that it’ll get better. It’s always worse before it gets better. Right? Maybe not. What am I waiting for? A sign telling me I can start living? A push to get me to start living?