So like I got a boyfriend and we both 15. We’ve made out before 6 times. It’s f***ing awesome. He’s a fantastic person and we’re wonderful together. So yay. Tomorrow ah I’m going to his house for the fourth time and apparently NO ONES GONNA BE HOME FOR A FEW HOURS. SO IM LIKE SCARED AS F***. we’ve been dating for about a week and a half. But still. Idk how fast he moves, and he’s turning 16 in 2 months. And there’s girls my age at school who aren’t virgins and I’m staying a virgin thank you but really what if someone takes their shirt off or what if he gets bored and our thumb wrestling making out thing isn’t enough???? He’s pale as f*** it’s so funny really hahaha. I think I’ll climb a tree again tomorrow afternoon before I go over, shower, clean my room a little, now dry my hair, no clue what the f*** I’m gonna wear. What do you wear to a guys house where you’ll be alone for a few HOURS. Like damn boy where are your parents??? Is his bro busy too?? Ah I wonder what he’s gonna try, last weekend he almost tried to touch my boobs but I let him touch my butt when we were making out. Honestly don’t know what the f*** is gonna happen. I don’t want his to change anything and I still gotta look at him as a best friend or I’ll ruin s***. Be the creative wonderful little s*** he loves. Then make out with his face. This is scary. I don’t want to make these decisions. Hopefully his bro will be home. That’ll be fine. Yeah, I’ll just plan like his bro will be there. Freak the f*** out when there’s actually no one home, we don’t know for certain yet. Yeah yeah just go like its normal, make food, watch movies, make out in the dark. IM BORING HIM. I’ve been to his house 4 times and he’s never been to either of mine, well moms or dads. Ideaaaaaaa for some clinic day to use when he’s not doing work : come to moms house and make out for an hour or 2 then walk back to catch the 4 o clock bus. Every Tuesday and Thursday. Damn, he’s gotta come here sometime. I’m going to his house tomorrow. His brother will be there. Plan for all scenarios though. Wait no don’t overthink it. Ignore the home alone factor. What’s it gonna change? Shouldn’t change anything. You’re not dating for a week and then f***ing. Don’t let him touch your boobs, it’ll be 3 nights and well… Just do whatever seems right in the moment. For now say no. Home alone… Well… Would I???? *thinks for a while* NO. good. Yolo now go to bed ~XO