No matter how hard I try to hold in the anger, I feel like it is consuming me slowly….. Is it because I am always hiding my feelings and putting up a fake smile that all this emotions I bottled up is slowly turning into anger??? I really don’t know what to do. Every time I lose my temper I feel guilty about it later. But if I hold it back it is suffocating me that I feel like I am drowning in hatred. Although I keep telling myself that I am very fortunate when compared to a lot of other people in this world so I mustn’t be angry or sad or have any negative feelings, but I can’t hold it back. What should I do to have a better control of my emotions??? I really don’t know.