i feel like i have so many expectations to live up to at school, but at the same time im best friends with this genius girl. she’s athletic and just generally amazing at everything she does. she admits that she doesn’t even put a lot of effort into the things she does. i know it’s terrible, but i constantly compare myself to her. i’ve always been known for doing well in my english class, but now she’s passing the class with no sweat at all and the teacher loves her.
i had a group project today and the teacher didnt like my presentation. i let my group down. i feel so miserable. sometimes i want to die? but i think itd be too much work to off myself. so i dont.
this got very depressing very quickly.