I never really had a relationship with my parents. They were always working when I was young. I only used to go places with my babysitter or church group. Now im grown uo and still no relationship with my parents. Father has left and started a new family. Here with my mother but still feeling like im missing both parents. I feel like I have no mother nor father. I guess my mother means well. But all she does is complain. My heart is in the right place, but I feel i was born in the wrong family. Just feeling like I wish I was in a different family. And my mothers side of the family is no different. I feel distant with them too. I had and still have no one to run to for help or just to talk to when im going through lifes hardest struggles. Funny how Ive been through a lot and im a good friend to my friends who need some one to talk to. But.. no one like that for me. I just wish I was born in another family. One that has a father. One that has a family instead of just people living in a household. Trying my hardest to regain what I dont have with my mother now that im older. But its hard. And she’s not making it any easier. Sigh. Looking at others with a full family. or even just a mom but that mom shows more love to her kids than My mother does me. I know the bible says thou shalt love thy parents. And I do.. I appreciate everythings shes done for me and my brothers when my father left… but im not sure I love her. I respect her… but not sure I love her..