Having the sick thought of killing myself has been in my mind for many years but, I know that I could never kill a life! I couldn’t kill someone else’s nor even mine. I care to much for the fact of life itself. I wish that I did have the guts to do something drastic. I almost ran into a truck a couple of days ago because of the lack of attention, then I thought that I would be one of many stupid idiots running in front of a fast moving truck.