I’ve lost my mind. I can’t seem to find what my mind and heart wants…lame. Wondering how the life ahead of me would be like is good but, then again, how would it look like? To many things on my mind that won’t come out fast enough. You know the movie “Mean Girls!” It’s like her word vomit but it’s actually a mind vomit. It’s literally throwing up CHUNKS! How does one mind of so many thoughts get out all at once! When I try to write about things, my mind goes way faster than my own hands (typing) or say hand (writing). Seeing lives but never seeing the life of yours getting better. Showing others what to do with their lives isn’t as different than showing yourself. I don’t see that happening to myself so I just don’t show myself. Taking things one step at a time. How do you do that! I don’t know anymore… I need counseling… Or someone to at least tell all of my problems to. No knows whats on my mind because it’s truly an odd one. I see things in a whole different view and I’ve never seen anyone else see the things that I’ve experienced or seen. Having a big family has never been a problem for me and I love them til death, well, maybe not my parents…Don’t ask why. I don’t necessarily accept them as my “parents,” even though they made me… They gave me too much to bear already!