I keep reading nearly everything that is posted…I got a feeling i’m commenting too much I’m kind of a depressed person in general. I had a burn-out/depression and I dropped university as I was panicking. I got treated by asking for help. Saw psychologists, social workers, family doctor and a psychiatrist. I did 8 weeks of group therapy, 35 hours a week. They had me write my entire life from a negative point of view and I had to read it every morning.
Everything that happened to me is all in my head, it’s not really real-life events. I think too much, I care too much about others and not enough about myself. I didn’t follow the flow as I would say. never took drugs, I don’t drink, I’m overly healthy and athletic, I was an ex-obese that lost lot of weight through natural means. But it changes nothing : Mental pain is only relieved by handling your thoughts and life… Kind of hard to constantly be in conflict in your head.
I’ve been single since forever, had my heart broken often through LOT of rejections, or just overall lackluster sexual experiences. It’s hard to forget about love, it’s used everywhere : commercials, movies, music, art, tv shows, war…everything is a reminder of all of your love stories.
I tried becoming asexual, didn’t really work. You end up having wet dreams that mess it all up.
Anyway, I wish you all good luck.