3 years later and I’m still as crazy as I was about you then, now. I’m sorry I can’t be confident, I’m trying but it’s difficult. I think it’s unfair that because I didn’t want to live for two years I missed out on a lot of steps and that’s why I can’t talk to you. I need to learn these steps but I don’t want to learn them with anyone else. Just you. I want you. I need you. Only you.