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i dont know what to do anymore? all i feel is misery. it hurts so bad.. i want to cry and just let it all out. its just so hard. why do i have to set this barrier to express my feelings? why do i only have to express the minimum? i feel like a such a failure. im filled with all these idealistic bulls*** dreams.. i laugh at my own dreams, that is how ridiculous they are. i just want to get away for a year or two.. i want to leave everything behind me. especially my past.