life……life can be sad, happy depressed or even suicidal. as right now idk what im feeling more like confusion scared that i will be failure in life. i feel alone even though i have a family that loves me. i cant seem to find my way out this depression.the more i think i about it the deeper i get in my thoughts. im tired of crying at night and asking for help. i reach to our God but i feel like i get no response. i feel trap. I feel like im putting to much pressure in myself to be someone in life. i just cant deal with this anymore. im having suicidal thoughts and it frightens me to think about it. life can be very dangerous and very heavenly. i mean one wrong turn and your life goes down hill in a blink of an eye. it can be heavenly by being happy finding joy and being surrounded by those who love you. i wanna find find myself. i used to have smile on my face, used to be very social. now i feel fake i have to pretend to be happy so no one can notice how i feel. i guess i gotta be patience. The pain that you have been feeling can not compare to the joy that’s coming #Romans 8:18