I feel so angry, sad, frustrated and stupid not because of what others did/say but I know that all this happened and I let the opportunity slip away because of me. I know that it is my fault so I can;t blame anyone and only myself. I know I can’t keep procrastinating but it is my fault and I know it well. since one mistake, one time of pain, one time of regret is not enough to teach me a lesson so i just need to feel everything again. I really hate myself for who I am. I really wanted to have that scholarship but it is all my fault that I don’t even have the right to have my ability to be evaluated as to whether it deserved the scholarship. Now what do I DO??? I feel like crying so much thought I know it doesn’t help at all. IT IS ALL MY FAULT !!!!!