so, i am a guy, 17 years old, im a junior at school and this school year has been pretty frustrating. i like to think of myself as a reserved person who keeps his things to himself, who is rational rather than emotional, i love he sciences and psychology and philosophy and i have always considered myself an introvert. this year so many things have happened that i just dont know who i am any more. i did terrible last partial, pre calculus is giving me such a hard time and all of this things school related have just destroyed all of my hopes and dreams of studying in another country and studying something related to what i love. on the other hand this sort of things have turned me into a more open person as i feel the need of people listening to my problems and giving their thoughts and opinions regarding what is happening in my life. this is the first time i have ever have the need of people knowing what is happening to me and it really just makes me think i am someone who i am not. i think it is just that i think things waaay too much even as i am writing this and re-reading what i have written i feel like it just doesnt make sense. it really sucks i just need some time for myself, some time to relax and think on whatever pops into my mind a the moment.