I feel like giving up. Nothing ever changes. Nothing ever gives. I got a baby on the way. I feel like not giving up so my family will be together. Then again its not worth the pain or the suffering. A dagger stabbed into my heart each day I try to continue on in this lifestyle. Hoping for the best for baby. Having it’s father around bc mine wasn’t. Giving my child the love and care that it needs. Giving up is more than letting go and walking away. It is letting the hurt and anger and suffering get to you. Am I really suffering? Am I really going thru pain? Maybe I’m just scared. Maybe I’m 3 steps behind and nothing seems to be going right. How do I get my mind right. Idk you tell me. How do I step up and tell him what he is doing is wrong. Idk you tell me. Writing clears my mind it doesn’t give me answers. Maybe everything don’t have an answer…