Everyday is the same I wake up I go to school then I go to practice and home. My life is so pointless, I have no one that truely likes me or just wants to be my friend. I know that I can’t talk to anyone about how I am feeling because then I will just be judged. I know that taking your own life is selfish, but hey it’s my f***ing life if it’s not going to get better why would I want to stay here and live it. I know that there are people that have it way worst, but no one really knows what goes on in someones life. I just want to be happy. I want true happiness though I don’t want to keep acting like I am happy when I’m not. I can’t talk to my parents about any of my problems or my friends….so this is it this is who i am left with my thoughts and a dumb computer I doubt this will help but I have to try something or get out some of what I am feeling. My life is like the butterfly effect things in my life just pile up until I can’t handel life anymore. Everyone may think my reasons aren’t good enough or that I’m just looking for attention, but thats not the case at all I don’t want people to feel bad or feel like I am blaming them for my pain. I guess I am just to nice of a person I need to grow a back bone and start standing up for myself. Sometimes I really think that I want to die but in reality I guess I just want to be saved or have someone care. I have to fight and hang on to my s***ty life because I’m only given one and I wouldn’t want to impact or f*** up someone elses life. So someone please give me some answers on what I should do. I just don’t want to wake up and live another day, I just want to stop breathing or disapear without anyone noticing. I am like a dead leaf that is falling to the ground, I can’t find my way back up not even the wind can carry me I’m just to far along with my depression I AM GONE.