God i wish i cud just look her in the eyes and tell her how i feel about all of it!! The way i love her,how jealous i get of everyone around her because i wanna b the special person she loves. We r best friends but recently nothing is the same.. We fight none stop, she is always talkin about a guy she likes but i hate it,she thinks tht she is better than me and tht she has everything figured out and s***. She will move on and leave me behind to fall apart like she always does. She will never realize wht she does to me.. Even if she did she would never care enough to change it. If things dnt go her way then she gets pissed and flips. Every day we go to which ever linch place she wants to. She never lets me pick anything and i am too f***in nice to yell at her and say tht its not fair and our friendship is tearing me apart. Its abusive in every way… To a point i wish i hadn’t met her cuz it wud have made my life easier but also she is my everything and i need her. I am so sick of this!!