Today has just been one of those days. I don’t know why I feel so low and I’ve never had to write anything like this before. Everything just seems to be going wrong. I don’t even know why I’m unhappy or whether doing this will actually help. I mean its not like anyone reading this is going to be able to help is it.
I’m not making any sense am I. I don’t know what it is, I just feel so down like there is nothing on the horizon to look forward to. I guess i must be like a lot of people searching for happiness. I’ve got a really good life, a loving family, lots of friends, but I just feel like something is missing.
I’m not happy with myself, I hate the fact I have no confidence which leads to me letting people down. I try to please everyone and end up pleasing no-one. I hate the fact I’m feeling all of this self pity. I just hate feeling this way. I’ve got to the point now where I feel like everyone just thinks I’m a freak. I’m rational enough to think that this cant be true. I hope not anyway.
At the end of the day I just feel so lonely. I am 31 years old, still live at home with my mum and thought I’d have my own family by now. As much as I love my mum I wish I could have met somebody to share the rest of my life with.
I’m not an ugly bloke, I quite often get complimented on my good looks. There must just be something drastically wrong with my inner make-up. I feel I’m destined to be alone and unhappy. Is there anyone who can help me snap out of this? Please.